I am my mother's daughter when it comes to time management and organization (or should I say disorganization).
I am nothing like my sister in these categories, wish as I may.... I am not.
I would like to think I am not a "YES" girl, and I am trying to be a more "ME" girl. But truth is, I am a yes girl and want my cake and eat it too:) kind of girl.
And sometimes I just feel like I get off track, off kilter, or just plan out of whack with everything at once.
Currently I look like the aftermath of a tornado on paper......
1. My physical state is a mess. Yes I am riding my bike more than usual but I have been eating everything unhealthy insight and not running as much as I should......that stupid workout wagon. So today I ran 2 miles and thought I was going to heave in front of this little old lady walking the track at Nike (this would have been mortifying, thank goodness I contained myself). I have found when I am not taking care of myself I start to unravel with these really bummer migraines....too many lately to count but I am taking it as a warning that things MUST change now if I want them to end.
2. My work environment has been uncomfortable, disorganized, stressful and not much fun at all. I am finding I have been dreading setting foot in the place, I usually love to be. So tomorrow I am getting up early, weather permitting walking the pooches and having coffee all in preparation for finding my happy zone at work again:)
3. My goal of graduate school has been deleted. This obviously was not "meant" to be, but it still smarts a little and I am trying to pull my big girl britches up and just deal with it. I am left feeling sub par, but really it is THEIR loss :p I think I may have been too much for them to handle anyways:)
4. And I think sleep deprivation is just the icing on the cake....or cupcake made of mud I have been eating this week. So I will be in bed by 10pm everyday this week! I need my beauty rest.
Tomorrow is the first day of the rest of your life, and my life. And I am going to try to let go and breathe. I don't know the plan but I am on the train.
I am hoping the train is heading to a beach on Hawaii......
Sounds as though you have forgotten to stop and smell the roses kiddo. Everything doesn't have to happen NOW. Go out and buy that bag of patience.
ReplyDeleteYou aren't too much for them at Grad School, you're just far too GOOD for them. And those of us who know you, know you are meant for things much bigger and better than that anyway.
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ps. If there's room on that train to Hawaii can I come along?
Just do something every day that makes you happy with yourself, and the Universe will take it from there. Some roads are dead ends, but that's okay, just enjoy the ride and be patient. Don't focus on the end of the road, but immerse yourself in all the cool things you see on the way there. :)
ReplyDeleteP.S. Enjoyed meeting you at Junk Salvation. :) ........and I will join you on that train.....
Sorry to hear about grad school, but.. not really. You know that I've felt that you are meant for something else, something better and have been saying so for the last 2 years :) I can't wait to see what is in store for you now that you have ruled out the left-hand turn and opened your mind to the other paths! If I know you, it will be amazing!
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